I can’t tell if you’re being nice or if you want something more.. And that confuses me.
I don’t think I show my dad as much appreciation as I show my mom. I think it’s sad because he’s also been there for me when my mom couldn’t be, and I don’t acknowledge that until Father’s Day. But even then I don’t do anything for him.. Guilt is tripping onto me right now. We never really spend time with each other as much as before.. Its saddening. I don’t want to drift away from the one man that’s been with me since birth but I also don’t want to go out empty handed.
Hi daddy. You’re never going to read this and I don’t tell you enough. But I love you very much even though there are days where I disappoint you. And like mom, never go a day without thinking for a second that I don’t love you because I always have and always will, despite all the times we go days without speaking to each other. Thank you for everything from teaching me now to ride a bike to being there with me before and after my interviews. I’ll never forget the days we spend with each other and believe me when I say I’ll make you proud one day. I love you. Happy Father’s Day.
And that’s that.
I really really really don’t want work to get in the way with my boyfriend and I. I’m hoping it doesn’t..
And no, it isn’t okay. It isn’t. At all.
Even though I’m supposed to prioritize and whatnot, I’d just rather be with him. I guess I’m so used to seeing him every weekend that’s something I don’t want to give up and if anything I’ll do morning shift and see him after~ but all in all, I really don’t want to sacrifice “those days”. I’ll sacrifice any other days except the times I spend with my boyfriend.
Does that make sense? I hope it’s okay.